Crossroads.

              Being out of stuffs to write, I've left this place dusty and filled with spiderwebs (Ewww) for some time. The truth is, my life nowadays is so mundane, and full of uncertainties, that I really don't know what to talk about.

              Once again, I'm back to the F&B field, working at O'Briens as a sandwich crew. The experience is generally fun, got to know lotsa ppl, kuyas and parehs from philipinnes and many from malaysia as well. Not much to talk about here, apart from a freakingly irritating colleague  that seems to be able to be the pain in my ass every second I see her. I find her quite pitiful actually, if not for the fact she keeps annoying me. Anyway, don't let her taint my blog. This job, apart from offering me a break from being constantly a penniless bummer, also allows me to learn quite few stuffs. How different everyone can be, how friendly Filipinos are, how to deal with difficult people, how to understand that some people didn't choose these roads, they simply don't have the power to choose. Most of them are uni graduates!!! I am one of the few lucky ones, I must say. Thank God, thank parents. This job brings me to the earth, how I had led a rather luxurious life, where 1.3k is actually sufficient for them, but barely covered my expenses @.@ One thing I must do before I leave, I'm going to email the boss of O'briens, and tell him what I've observed. And of course, some farewell gifts for those who has helped me =)

                 I was rather surprised my whole family came to find me during Raya. So happy. At night, Jiayong korkor actually talked to me. I remember him to dote on me a lot when I was still young, but we kind of drifted away as I grow older. But I guess he still cares about me. What he said is right. I know what I'm good at, and I've worked hard for years for it. Why throw it away and choose a totally different career just because I tripped along the way? I should try harder to get out of my comfort zone. He's leaving for Qatar soon. Poor Sandy jiejie, it's gonna be a long trip. But I hope I can be as brave as him. SPO, although meaningful, has totally nothing to do with what I've been doing. I should stop running away. On a sidenote, Prof actually has no qualms in accepting me. He in fact, wrote a full proposal and recommendation letter for me already. But still, it depends on the committee to offer me the grant or not. Take it? Or leave it? I actually know where my heart is, but simply waiting for the right time to reveal it. The time when Chance knocks at my door. It's going to be a marathon. I need to believe in what I chose.

               Everything said by anyone should be taken with a pinch of salt. That's what I've learnt so far. In the end, I'm the one who has to bear the responsibilities for the things that I've made decisions for. Just like what JayR kuya said: "Listen to your heart. You knew the answer long time ago, don't you?"

               I've learnt to let things go as well. Why make those things matter when you yourself don't really matter to those people? haha. I need to pray more. I think I slowly found my own way to get happier and happier.